Monday, December 12, 2016
It's been 2 nights since his flight out and I am very glad it is a short trip. I miss him dearly and I cannot wait until I finally get to see him again.
I am going to hug him as tight as I can and kiss him until he's had enough.
Saturday, November 19, 2016
Gee, it's really starting to heat up now. I'm really missing the cold. I hate heat. I hate the humidity. I hate the buys, most especially the flies.
The cold is so much for comforting. If you're feeling chilly you could have a nice, hot beverage and layer on more clothes or curl in under a blanket and you'll be all nice and cosy.
The heat however, take off as many layers as you want, you'll still feel the heat. You'll still sweat and get all stick from the humidity. Not even having a cold drink or dessert will help cool you down all that much.
But hey, lots of people like the heat. The like the sun. They like the beach.
To each their own I guess.
Lol! What am I even rambling on about?!
I think I'm just trying to distract myself.
Life just hasn't been the same this past week and it's not going to get an easier to be completely honest.
I'm not ready to let it all out though. I might not even do so on this blog. I think it's just too personal and I don't really want to start a series of depressing blog posts. I'll try to keep that to my own private twitter account.
Anyway, I'm off for now. Hope you all have a lovely weekend.
Thursday, November 17, 2016
Wednesday, November 16, 2016
Last week there was a 40% off cosmetics sale at Priceline and I didn't buy anything.
The last few days and ending today, there's been sales on Asos, The Iconic, Boohoo, Missguided, Converse and so many other stores I love. And I have not bought anything.
It's taken so much self-control and I'm so proud of myself.
I've even been contemplating going shopping tomorrow and/or Sunday to look for a dress for my work Xmas party, but then I think about all the dresses I have that I don't always wear.
It's just one night, I can wear something I already have. I'll probably just wear a navy or black dress and glam it up with some jewellery. Actually, that might be something I will buy. I might buy some jewellery I can use for that night.
Anyway, just a lot of word vomit tonight. Another early start tomorrow so I'll doze off after this episode of Game Grumps.
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
So I went to work today. Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be considering I'm actually still quite sick. I'm just glad my headaches weren't as bad as they were yesterday and how they are now ... Yes, my head is actually really hurting right now.
I've taken my medicine and I even took two Panamax pills but I don't feel any of the effects. I've just drank some water so hopefully that will help a little.
Anyway, just a random thought that have been going through my mind.
I was thinking of going shopping on Thursday or Sunday. I was thinking that it's just over 2 weeks until my work Christmas Party and I still don't know what I want to wear. All I know so far is that I want to wear a red dress since it's a Vegas theme.
I've looked on Iconic but some of the dresses I want are either no longer available in my size, or they're just too much to spend on an outfit for a work function. I know it only comes by once a year, but the venue I just don't see the point of pending $100+ on a dress I may never wear again.
Hopefully I can find something a little more affordable when I go shopping this week.
Monday, November 14, 2016
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Mainly just to give an update on something not that big.
So, I have initially started this blog because I wanted to be a fashion blogger. However, I never really got around to taking photos of my own, or researching and recreating trends, and other things fashion bloggers would do.
I didn't get around to it just because I was lazy, but also because I just never thought I was good enough. My sense of fashion hasn't always been the best on me. I would see how other people put pieces of clothing together and think, "Hey! That looks awesome. I want to try that out!"
However .... One, I didn't really have money to buy those things. Two, I didn't have the time to buy those things. Three, I didn't have the time or money to take decent enough photos - all I really had was my phone and my dad's old SLR camera but it was just way to hard to take photos by myself, especially without a tripod. And four, I just thought that those clothes didn't look great on me.
Regardless of still eating what I want when I want, I've struggled with how I feel about my image. I'm not skinny, and I'm not obese. I can see that plan and simple. I just struggle to be comfortable in what I wear. Even when I wear things that others suggest would suit my body type, I just still didn't have that confidence. And ... let's all be real honest guys. If I could choose to wear an outfit for the rest of my life, I would pick sweatpants and a hoodie, hands down!
Anyway, losing track now. So I started this blog because I wanted to be a fashion blogger but that never happened. I would share photos and posts from Lookbook.nu of looks that I really liked, but I didn't do any more than that.
Eventually, my blog turned into posts about my then-boyfriend and quotes and what not. Just a bunch of random or miscellaneous thoughts. After that I think it all just went downhill. I have a couple of other sites going ... My Tumblr is funnily still alive. So is my second blogger site - but don't bother checking for updates - I haven't yet deleted it but I eventually will. I need to get a hang of how all these sites work again ... I feel like I'm getting old hahaha. Yeah so what else ... Oh yeah, my Twitter and Instagram is still used quite often. I log and browse pretty much everyday but I don't always post. Same with Facebook and Snapchat. My Lookbook is also still alive, but I haven't posted in about a year I think. I should again soon actually, now that I think about it.
Wow, I keep going off topic in this blog post. Whatever ... So to just get to the point, this blog will pretty much just be random stuff. My thoughts mostly. What's going on in my life. Updates. Things I find interesting or funny. I'll try to share things that I spend my time on too, like what I'm reading or what I'm watching - mostly on Youtube or Netflix since I don't really watch TV.
Yeah, this blog will be about me. Which is why I changed the name from it's original "Sentimentally Ordinary". I just feel like that's not me anymore and I need to let go and move on.
I was thinking of starting a new blog all together but you know what? My past is my past and it is a part of who I am today. I have remove some panels on the sides - anything about ex really - because that is no longer part of who I am today. But I won't or don't plan to delete any of my old posts about him. He was an important part of my life for 5 years and that's something I appreciate. I grew a lot and learned a lot and deleting it all as if it were just easy to erase or because I don't want to remember any of it seems petty. Like I said, my past is part of who I am today and sometimes going through old posts just reminds me of why I have made the decisions that have brought to where I am now.
So again, this blog with be about me. Old posts will most likely still be there. I'll probably change a couple other things like the background. But most I'll keep as is.
It's definitely been quite a while since I last wrote. 10 months and 4 days to be exact!
A lot has happened in the last 10 months and I don't really want to recap any of the nitty gritty details of wrong choices I've make in that time.
Instead I'll take the time to post updates about what is currently going in my life today, or at the point in time.
I would honestly love to blog everyday and possibly even start to vlog. Especially since I bought a new laptop today, I could start it all nice and fresh. But we'll see how things go.
I'm currently still sick - been sick for 4 days now - and I need proper rest before I really get into anything. I'll definitely post a little more now though. I've quite missed typing on a proper keyboard rather than typing on my phone. Just doesn't feel quite the same on my phone.
Anyway, that'll be all for now. I may come back later on in the day and share some things.And if not later, most definitely tomorrow!
Saturday, January 9, 2016
I want someone who can take care of me. Someone who can show me and prove to me that I am actually worth it. Someone who will sacrifice and put me first. Someone who will accept my flaws and carry me when I struggle to carry myself. Someone who can and will do their best to make me feel important and valued as an individual and as their partner.
I want someone who will love me the way I loved him. The way that I emptied myself to try to fill him up with every ounce of love and strength I had in me. The way that I gave my all. The way that despite how hurt I was, I stuck around and still kept giving when I had almost nothing left for myself.
I want someone who I can give my all to and they'd give their all to me too.