Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Spoiled.

I asked my boyfriend to buy me two knit sweater online that I have been wanting for quite some time.
THANK YOU BABY! You're the best!!
But not only because he bought it for me of course. And besides, there's something I need to work on before he'll even give them to me.

As I have stated on a previous post, I need an attitude adjustment.
I've been very, very moody recently.
My moods/emotions will switch from 'get-out-of-my-face' to 'cheery' then back to 'not-in-the-mood'.
I feel bad for my boyfriend actually. He gets confused and sometimes goes 'off-mood' himself because of how I react to him.
Sorry baby...
So yeah, I've got to work on my attitude and behaviour.

University.

I officially start my second year of university tomorrow!
I am quite excited!

Regardless of the dreary weather, I'll love going to class tomorrow. I honestly prefer the cold and rain over a smoldering sun and humidity any day anyway.

I hope I can get to sleep earlier tonight.
Just so tomorrow will come sooner!

Monday, February 27, 2012

I don't care how old they are. They're smoking hot!!

Brad Pitt


Robert Downey Jr.

Am I a horrible person?

Not everyone knows the whole story.
Actually, I believe that nobody does.

If someone did know all the sides, who was the victim, who was the manipulated, and who was the culprit?

Challenge.

It's been quite some time, yet I still feel like I'm competing.
I hate this feeling. And I need to stop.
I still compare myself to you, which really doesn't help with my self-contentment at all.

I have to admit though, I think I'm doing pretty well.
It's not hurting as much. So I guess that means that it doesn't get to me as much as it used to.

But still, I really need to stop.
I just wished that I was able to forget all that I have read and seen.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Attitude Adjustment.

That's what I need.
My patience has been wearing very thin lately and I really don't like it.
I feel like I suffer from rage blackouts because I'm consciously awake, yet I can't stop myself from raging at whoever I'm upset with.

The Weekend.

My final holiday weekend before university starts.
I'm excited!

Though, I'm not too fond of the $116 I have to spend to textbook/workbook resources though.
Regardless, I'm eager to hit the books!!

Friday, February 24, 2012

University.

Starting my second year of uni. education next week.
I'm pretty excited.
Not sure if it's just about starting uni. again that gets me excited. But I also think that the fact that I'll be out of the house more often.
Anyway .. I hope my utlook on uni. doesn't change too much or too quickly this year though. I don't want to be miserable all over again.
I hate it when I'm unsure of what I want. That's why I'm really hoping that I'll enjoy my subjects this year.
So this semester I'll be studying Literature, Mathematics and Chinese (Mandarin). I'm only taking 3 subject this first semester because well, I kinda don't want to do my other unit which is Play, Development and Learning. I already know this unit will stress me out and I honestly don't think I can take it for now.
I'll catch up in the summer. I hope some of my units and/or elective will be offered during the summer.
If not, I might look into a mid-year term. I could probably do a unit or two which is still good enough for me.
I want it to be next week already!
Hurry hurry hurry!

Escape.

I want to get out of here. Or maybe I need to.
I feel like I'm slowing going to lose my mind.

She's driving me nuts!
Yes, I love her dearly and I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to her. But sometimes she's just too much to handle.
She makes it as if everything surrounds her and her precious and perfect world.
HELLO! There is no such thing as perfection!

Seriously, I don't feel like I'm good enough to exceed any of your expectations.
I do what I can and I do my best. But what do you do?
Complain and criticise every little thing. It's like no matter how hard I try, I do everything wrong. Or more precisely, I don't do it to your standards.

*sigh ..
I love you.
But like I said, sometimes you're just too much.
That's why I can't wait to get out of here